Hi guys! So I’ve been a bit distant the past few days and I’ve missed a fair amount of Blogtober. There’s varying reasons for this; some of which I don’t want to get into while others I’ll hopefully be hearing back about soon. I’ve been applying for jobs, which some of you may know and I’ve had an interview which I’m waiting to hear back on today. I think it’s likely that I’m not going to hear back today but if I do, I’ll let you guys know! For now, I’m writing up this post as something that will serve as a distraction for me.
So, let’s get into it.
Basically… I’ve not been feeling my blog or my Youtube channel recently. It’s not because I’m lazy or uninspired; it’s because I’ve been looking at it and thinking about how it’s not what I want it to be. It’s not as creative as I want it to be, I personally don’t feel like it stands out. This is referring to both my blog and my Youtube channel but especially my channel. My blog is just my place to splurge a bunch of thoughts and get my feelings out there about different things.
Whereas my Youtube channel takes time. I’ve got to prepare the video, film it and edit it. And honestly? The past few videos, I’ve been sat in front of a camera and just doing my makeup. Which is fine for some time. But I really want to utilise my creative skills and make them more visually pleasing. Make it that these videos are literally only going to be available on my channel – they won’t be a mirror image of every other makeup youtuber in the community. Does that make sense?
And don’t get me wrong – I’m not slagging off anyone else’s work. Everyone has their own spin on things. Everyone’s videos will be unique because everyone, in themselves, is unique. But I’ve not been feleing sitting down and filming or writing anything until I come to terms with how I want my content to come out. So, I’ve been asking myself these questions:
What do I want my audience/readers to take away from this video/post?
What is the aesthetic I want for this video/post?
How long will it take me to make this and will the outcome be worth it?
Is it something I would enjoy watching/reading?
Is it something I would enjoy creating?
If I can’t answer these questions then to me, this isn’t something that I want to create. I rave on about how I’m not utilising my film degree in my everyday work and yet when it comes to my hobby where I have totally free reign over my creativity, I don’t maximise it to the best of my ability. And this is something that I should be doing.
So, from now on; things are going to be different. Not so much on my blog but definitely on my channel. I want my blog to be a better reflection of the inner workings of my mind; things I’m working on and things I’ve achieved/failed on. Everyone’s in the process of learning and I want to share this.
As for my channel, I’ve been brainstorming ideas with my family and friends and I can see a positive change on the horizon. I hope you guys will bear with me and perhaps even suggest what you would like to see in future from me as that would be so helpful.
My Youtube channel is here – if you guys could give me some feedback, that would be great.
Morgie out. x
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